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by Sunny » April 9th, 2015, 6:26 am
Amadie's mind cleared as she stepped into the Blue Ajah quarters in Tel'aran'rhiod. A moment later her body cleared of wounds, her hair grew long and luxurious, a delicately wrought net of gold chain and pearls gathering it a the nape of her neck. She wore her finest brocade riding gown, split for ease of movement and, if need be, to run. The hem was picked out with blue flames, a subtle reminder that she, Amadie Laine, was and always would be an Aes Sedai of the Blue Ajah.
She stood for a moment, her mind flowed through novice exercises, bringing with them absolute serenity, inner strength, and poise. A rose blossomed and turned into a stream, which became a gentle wind, which became the insistent pulse of the tide on the sands of home. Saidar bloomed within her, and she held it with the same gentle strength she always had. It embraced and protected her, and for a moment, she remembered the very first time she had ever touched that sweetness. How young she had been, then, how naive. How certain she would become a legend.
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We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still greater things burned within us
****
Carra. Her friend had always been an enigma, and yet Amadie had thought they were close, that she knew the Red's secrets as well as Carra knew her own. They had studied together, mourned Amora's loss together, plotted revenge for Jaryd's misdeeds together. Carra had trusted her with her intent to recreate the Red Ajah, and Amadie had trusted her with her secret ability to Dreamwalk. They had planned their future together, too, until Carra had been summarily raised to Amyrlin. Until now, she had trusted Carra implicitly.
Until now. "Who is Aramisa?" She asked out loud. She heard a familiar laugh; she turned to face the sound, but there was nothing to see. "Who are you?" She asked, her voice louder.
"Your worst nightmare, little Aes Sedai," a voice said- and then the sense of wrongness faded, as if whoever spoke had moved away.
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I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same
****
Amadie felt her back straighten as self-discipline and steel resolve filled her heart. Whatever Carra's secrets were, this man -creature!- was tormenting an Accepted for no reason other than to get Carra's attention. The Aes Sedai could not imagine a more reprehensible act. As her need to eradicate the menace that had so abruptly interrupted her life overtook her, she realized something terribly important. Something she abruptly realized she would never be able to speak aloud. It doesn't matter what you did. I will always love you.
Her resolve grounded by an unexpected inner peace, she closed her eyes and imagined Liri's face. "Where are you, Lirievin?" She asked aloud. Take me to her.
Shift
She stood in the Tower Gardens. No Liri. Shift. The stables. The kitchens. Novice quarters. An inn. The wrong feeling returned, and Amadie pulled saidar in, in preparation for whatever might come.
Shift.
She stepped into a corridor in the novice halls. Liri stood there, new wounds marking her fair skin, hands raised in a defensive position and her face set. She was terrified, yet fierce; in her state of detached calm, Amadie took note of her courage and her respect for the girl abruptly increased tenfold.
She realized then that the Accepted faced...a man in a fancloth cloak. This monster is a Warder? No. It could not be. He had killed a Warder, or stolen the cloak. No Warder, not even a Darkfriend, would do this. Would he?
Amadie channeled, flows of Fire and Air lashing out to wrap around the man's arms. For one exultant moment she bound him with the Power, and took a step towards him. In the next breath, her flows vanished as if they had never existed, and she stumbled, surprise breaking her calm. "Did you think you could catch me so easily, mouse?" The world around them started to shift, and she clamped down, hard, on what she knew reality to be.
"You won't catch me so easily this time," she said coldly. She concentrated, imagining a wall surrounding her assailant. The wall appeared, but she felt him touch it with a finger and it shattered. "Light," She breathed, "where did you learn? How have I not seen you before?"
"I had no need for you to see me before, mouse," the man said, eyes glittering. "What purpose would it have served? Since you are here now, shall we play a game?" Reality melted, replaced only by blinding pain. She screamed, arching her back, calm lost, saidar lost, the only thing in her mind the realization that somehow, some way, she had met her match.
A few excruciating moments later, he brought her back to the hall. She fell on her knees before him, gasping, and he arched an eyebrow. "You are not doing a good job at protecting your charge, mouse," he said. Fighting convulsions, Amadie turned her head, looking for Liri. The Accepted crouched some distance away, a new shallow gash across her shoulder.
"She is a child!" Amadie snapped, fury giving her strength. "Why do you torment her when she has done nothing to harm you?" She scrambled to her feet and embraced saidar. She needed to keep him busy for a little while. Just a little while. She gestured, and a fireball the size of a large dog erupted before her, speeding towards her companion.
If it hit, she never saw it. The pain returned, twisting her limbs until she fell to the floor, her shrieks echoing on the corridors. "You cannot...have her..." she gasped between cries, pushing herself off the floor. "You can NOT. You WILL not."
****
Moments lost, though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
****
It felt like hours passed as she struggled with him. She imagined him in a cage. She imagined a knife and tried to stab him. She tried to drown him, to burn him, to drop him off the highest peak she could think of. He countered every attempt as if toying with a child, and every move brought a new wound, a new source of pain, a new distraction for Amadie.
Finally, desperately, she channeled until she could channel no more. As she drew on saidar she remembered the lectures she had gotten as a novice- never draw too much, they had told her. The consequences are…terrible. She remembered testing her limits as an Accepted, and again as an Aes Sedai. That ache paled in comparison to the burn she felt now as she pulled in more and more of the Power. She had to defeat him, whatever the cost....but Light, oh Light it hurt. She released the flows- and they vanished, taking with them her last hope for victory. Laughing eyes stared at her as she fell into darkness and horror.
I was so young and naive.
****
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
****
Something nagged at her, and pulled her back from oblivion. Something she still needed to do. She had a purpose? A girl. There was a girl she needed to protect. Someone was hurting a girl. Which girl? Who was hurting her?
She stirred, coughed. Red drops splattered the floor and she stared at them hazily, wondering where they came from.
A man's laughter rang in her ears, then his boot connected with her belly, replacing her grief with the physical agony of snapping ribs. Get up, she ordered herself. Somehow she staggered to her feet, bracing herself with hands on knees. A quick glance told her Liri lived, though she could not tell if this stranger had hurt her any more.
"Are you tired of playing yet, mouse?"
"Are you...tired...of hurting a child for petty revenge?" She panted. She scrambled for saidar and found only a whisper of light that faded faster than it had arrived. Tears burned her face.
"I almost like you, mouse," he said in a cordial tone, walking over to put a hand on her shoulder. His weight pressed down, grinding against bone; she bit her lip, tasting copper as her teeth punctured flesh. The pressure increased until she cried out, pushing at him ineffectually. "You don't look strong, but you just keep going. I could admire that, if only you weren't so close to Aramisa."
"Who in the bloody Creator's name is Aramisa?" Amadie gasped, contorting beneath him.
“A liar,” the man said, his voice abruptly savage, “a killer, a thief…and a dead woman, when I’m done with her.” He grinned. “I hear she decided to call herself Carraighdin when she started her new life. How is that working out for her?”
Amadie scowled. She had thought so, yet the confirmation of Carra’s lie still burned. “Everyone deserves a second chance,” she said coldly, ignoring the hurt. Light, how could she go on? She had to, somehow, until Carra could find Lirievin and take her to safey.
She saw his eyes shift, heard the Accepted cry out. She concentrated, imagining her fingernails growing to sharp points, the most change she could muster. Then she leapt at him, savaging his face and neck with her fingers, wrapping her legs around his and pulling him down, kicking, hitting, biting. He yelped –the first expression of surprise she had heard out of him, and fought to get her off him. She felt the burn of a blade , and ignored it.
“Oh!” The exclamation of surprise stopped both of them; as Amadie’s gaze shifted upward, Liri abruptly faded, and disappeared.
The strange man cursed, and threw Amadie away from him. She landed on her back on the floor, her head smashing on something sharp and hard as she fell. She stared up at him from where she lay, brows slightly furrowed in confusion. Everything was blurry, and she could hear the ocean in her ears as if she lay on its shores at that very moment.
He squatted next to her, ran his left fingers along her jaw line, his right hand running up the left side of her body in an almost loving gesture. “You put up a good fight, little mouse,” he said calmly, “but it’s time for the game to end.” Abruptly something cold, so cold, colder than anything she had ever felt in her life, slipped between her ribs. He stood then and strode away without another word, his fancloth cloak melting into the world around him until suddenly he vanished.
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Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Amadie lay in silence after his departure, tears sliding unheeded down her cheeks. Her life played behind her eyelids even as it flowed from between her ribs. Slowly her vision faded, and she floated in gray, the agony she had endured for so long finally fading into the distance. A light glowed warmly above her, beckoning to her through the shifting mist. She looked behind her, and saw a line stretching into eternity. That thread ached and burned, but attached to it were memories of her friends faces, her family, the daughter she had known only inside a ter’angreal test, her hopes for the future.
The light beckoned again. With a sigh, Amadie turned away from the line. They would find her again, some day.
She flew.

False alarm- there's still a song for me; I'm just about around to sing it
There's still a chance for me...and I'm still here singing.