The ride, as awful as it was, gave Liaran far too much time to think. She did not say one word to Haeden over the days that passed. What could she possibly say? As they continued on, it had become horribly clear to the Aes Sedai that she could never have gotten home had she been alone and on foot. She just wasn't strong enough. She knew she would have found a river or a pond, some source of water, to throw herself into and let the life flow from her. Only Haeden's intervention had prevented that from happening, and for someone as self-reliant as Liaran, the realization was sickening. She owed the Gaidin, the stranger, her life. Nothing she did, certainly no mere words could ever repay him for that.
She had long ago lost count of the days they'd been traveling. Everything hurt. Her arms ached from clinging to the saddle, her legs burned from her constant attempts to keep herself upright, and the slowly healing wounds on her back itched until Liaran could have clawed them open again, if she'd had a hand free to do so. All of it paled next to the hole inside her. There were times when Liaran looked down at herself and couldn't quite understand how something could be so painful and yet leave no mark on her actual body. The horse kept running, and Liaran fought to hold on, not to lose her grip.
She barely heard Haeden assuring her that they had almost arrived, and never noticed when they had passed through the Tower gates. Only the sudden stop of the horse jolted Liaran back to full awareness. Haeden helped her down, for which she was both grateful and embarrassed, because she really had needed it. If she had tried to get down on her own, she was sure her legs would have collapsed underneath her. As it was, she still held the saddle in one hand, and wasn't about to let go until she was sure she could stand on her own.
Haeden asked her if she wanted him to go with her, and it was a surprise to Liaran to realize that part of her did. She didn't want to be alone, though it irritated her since it was hardly far from where they stood to the infirmary. When had she become so weak? Still, she wasn't about to ask him to stay with her. How long had the poor man been traveling with her already? It was supposed to have been two days, if that, and however long it had been, it had surely been far longer than that. She could not possibly justify taking him from his own life any longer, but neither could she refuse him if he wanted to go. Liaran sighed, and her legs shook under her, suggesting that she wasn't quite steady enough to let go of the horse yet. "You don't have to, unless you want to," she told him. "I've been more than enough trouble already." The Aes Sedai blinked. She hadn't meant to say that out loud, but she was so tired and hurt so much it was hard to think. Liaran let go of the saddle, wavering as she tried to keep herself standing upright enough to make it to the infirmary.
She had long ago lost count of the days they'd been traveling. Everything hurt. Her arms ached from clinging to the saddle, her legs burned from her constant attempts to keep herself upright, and the slowly healing wounds on her back itched until Liaran could have clawed them open again, if she'd had a hand free to do so. All of it paled next to the hole inside her. There were times when Liaran looked down at herself and couldn't quite understand how something could be so painful and yet leave no mark on her actual body. The horse kept running, and Liaran fought to hold on, not to lose her grip.
She barely heard Haeden assuring her that they had almost arrived, and never noticed when they had passed through the Tower gates. Only the sudden stop of the horse jolted Liaran back to full awareness. Haeden helped her down, for which she was both grateful and embarrassed, because she really had needed it. If she had tried to get down on her own, she was sure her legs would have collapsed underneath her. As it was, she still held the saddle in one hand, and wasn't about to let go until she was sure she could stand on her own.
Haeden asked her if she wanted him to go with her, and it was a surprise to Liaran to realize that part of her did. She didn't want to be alone, though it irritated her since it was hardly far from where they stood to the infirmary. When had she become so weak? Still, she wasn't about to ask him to stay with her. How long had the poor man been traveling with her already? It was supposed to have been two days, if that, and however long it had been, it had surely been far longer than that. She could not possibly justify taking him from his own life any longer, but neither could she refuse him if he wanted to go. Liaran sighed, and her legs shook under her, suggesting that she wasn't quite steady enough to let go of the horse yet. "You don't have to, unless you want to," she told him. "I've been more than enough trouble already." The Aes Sedai blinked. She hadn't meant to say that out loud, but she was so tired and hurt so much it was hard to think. Liaran let go of the saddle, wavering as she tried to keep herself standing upright enough to make it to the infirmary.